a painting. finally.

painted this today. jammed to tunes. consumed caffeine. lots of it. and painted. ultramarine blue is one of my fave colors. ever. ultramarine blue with purple...and violet..and some white flowers.....finally i was able to paint something. this piece is in my etsy shop here.

cannot stop listening to music. if i am awake music is jammin wherever i am. in the loft. in my car. wherever. no silence. silence leads to too much thinking. and i am always thinking. always. and sometimes i just don't want to.

missing james very much.

feeling disconnected.

feeling restless.

but whatever i feel...i feel it deeply. whether it's sadness, happiness.....whatever it is.

that's just my personality.

someone made a comment to me the other day...oh...artists..they are so tempermental. um. yeah. it's true. at least for me. that's when i get 'the look'. you know...the one that says without actually saying the words....dude....are you insane?! but if i am not feelin' it, i can't paint worth a crap. if i am not inspired in some way. for the last week i have not been feelin' it. painted four different pieces (all of which are still unfinished). and then today...and i have no clue how it happened...i painted..and it just happened. so maybe i am crazy...i don't know...but at least i was able to paint.