wish i knew how to put up a coolio blog banner. but i don't. wish i wasn't a retard when it came to computers. but i am. and frankly, i'm too lazy to figure it out. don't have the time. the time that i do have i want to spend doing something else. entirely.
no page a day today. not feelin' it. and scrapping isn't supposed to be about stressing yourself out. so instead i will spend some time with james.
wish we were going to the beach this weekend. but we aren't. things happen.
as i sit here james is on his way home. with dinner. yes. i am not cooking. which is nice. and needed. this weekend will be filled with mundane chores instead of beautiful ocean, cold water and sea breezes. no playing in the sand. no dinner at the wharf. no inhaling so deep it makes my lungs hurt because if i don't inhale every scent of sea air i'm afraid i can never get enough. no getting away from the everyday. at least not today. no feeling emotions so strongly i want to cry. not because i'm sad...well...maybe a little sad...because i miss the life that comes in this place... no gazing in awe at the pure beauty. no just being so happy to be away doing something different. no sharing all this with james, and my boys....at least not today.
instead i have a huge headache. and i'm freezing my ass off. and i don't want to do laundry. and i don't want to unload the dishwasher. yes. it's still full from last night. and i don't want to listen to my boys bicker. enough already. they play well...then they fight. then they play well....then they fight. and my head...it just pounds. i'm bored. yes. that's it. i think i'm bored. but i'm sure grocery shopping this weekend will fix that right up. maybe i'll even take the kids. that would make it an adventure. doesn't that sound fun?