jacked this photo from michelle.
it's a trip to see a photo taken by someone else.
the last three days....too many conflicting emotions at once.
having more trouble sleeping than normal. MORE trouble sleeping? are ya fucking kidding me?!
i want to be consumed.
by something. with something. by someone.
so that i forget everything else. and just be in THAT moment.
whatever you want to call it is so strong.
still want to do things i shouldn't do. the part of me that never goes away.
feeling uneasy. pissed off. sad. hopeful.
drinking pomegranate martinis.
hoping i can get some fucking sleep tonight. i so need it.