Tuesday, August 14, 2007

no one really ever knows.....

no one ever really knows exactly what is going on inside your head, inside your house...exactly what you are going through.

i can never know exactly what linda (my mother in law) is going through while jim (my father in law) is in the hospital being treated for cancer. he will have been in the hospital for three weeks on friday.

i can never know exactly what my brother and his wife are going through (but i'm about to find out). heading to my bro's house tomorrow for a few days. it's not going to be fun.

i can never know exactly what trish is going through (my sister in law). the entire family on james' side is going through so much right now....

and no one can ever know exactly what james and i go through on a daily basis. why do people find it impossible (at least the people closest to me sans james) to actually think about what is going on in someone else's life. why does my family feel the need to compare to see whose life is most miserable?

why can't my family be happy for us when good things happen? why is there always a 'rub'....some underlying comment. that is so not healthy.

james leaves for alabama tomorrow. ick.

now i'm going to scrap. and jam to some beastie boys. or maybe something else. whatever fits my mood. not sure yet. i just want to immerse myself. forget about everything else and go make something.

back in a few days.

4 comments:

Lisa said...

Hugs to you my friend. It's the pits when people are trying to drag you down

Although it does give me an idea for a new reality show.

"Pity Party" where families swap lives for a MONTH! And I'm talking "blood" families, not the contrived opposites of "Wife Swap"

What do you think? Want to helpp me pitch it to FOX :-)

Stephanie said...

Wow, sounds like you are going through a not so fun time! Sounds like you could really use that birthday vacation!
Hope the scrappin' therapy helped!

Leslie Ashe said...

Hugs girl...hugs galore.

Rachael said...

Ugh, Debbie Downers! Did you ever see those skits on SNL?

I wish I could come there and give ya a big hug!!!