Wednesday, July 14, 2010

blog posts should not have titles.

it bothers me that i miss being part of an 'us'.
why can't i just suck it back in, take it back to the level it used to be (before james) and be happy with it just being me.
and not an us.
i am down with spending time by myself.
i don't like to paint when people are around.
i guess i'm just figuring out that i also like knowing there is someone for me to be with when i am ready.
when i want it.
it REALLY bothers me that i miss being part of an us.
i guess i thought i was more independent than that.
maybe i see wanting someone to hold me as a sign of weakness.
it's almost sad to me, that not much seems to phase me.
i'm not surprised when things don't go the way i thought they were going to go.
i'm not surprised when people say they will do things and they don't.
i'm also starting to get pissed off that i can't say what i really want to say here.
this blog is my journal.
yet i'm having to edit myself.
which totally pisses me off.
time to start a new blog??
thinking about it.


Leah said...

I agree with the no title are a genious!
sorry you are feeling edited...and we all need people, even if we like spending time, even a lot of time, alone. hugs my friend.

QuirkyGirl said...

I'm with you, Momma! I had to cut bait and start over again. I'd love a cyber map to where you are, but of course it's your call and I'll respect whatever you say cause that's the kinda friend I am :)

Personally, I love a witty blog title, but what do I know? I'm a sap right now! Lol

The truth is: you'll never be who you were before James. His love changed you. The life you had together has made you a different person. And, Momma, you're the better for it. That's not weak, my friend. That's really livin'

QuirkyGirl said...

Okay, so sometimes it lists on ma blog browser that you have a new post then when I go to your actual blog it aint there! What gives??? Did you erase the post that came after this one? Or am I having technical difficulty?

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