something happened to me the other night.
well, that's not actually totally correct.
i have known this for a while.
just wasn't willing to own it.
or do anything about it.
but now i am just fucking taking it head on.
because that's what needs to be done.
cut the shit.
if there's somethng you don't like and have the capability to fix, fix it.
and so it begins. right now.
but fucking-a is it going to suck.
it's gotta be done.
so that's what's happening.
a day at a time.
then a week will have gone by.
things have GOT to change.
i can do this. for one week.
then i'll reassess.
figure out what i need to do.
one day at a frigging time because that is all i can handle.
i have to start somewhere.