Wednesday, September 10, 2008

the grass is always greener.


having my mom here for a few days was nice. complicated, but nice. i wish i could make her life easier. it makes me sad how much worry and stress is in her life. her husband is scheduled for a bit of surgery tomorrow morning. i asked my mom if she wanted me to fly down. she said no. she will call me and keep me updated.
today i have been out of energy. emotionally and physically. out of sorts, sort of. it's because i'm tired. really really really tired.
my birthday was nice but my mom made a comment that bothers me. she said this time, this trip i seemed stressed. i am tired. that's a big part of it. and i told her that. it bothers me that she thinks she added more stress and work to my life. i don't care. i look forward to and enjoy her visits. even if i have to actually clean my house. and i didn't mind baking my own birthday cake. or my pie. i didn't want her to have to do it when she got here. i wanted her to have a break. to enjoy herself some and not work. i wanted to do something nice for her, to have little surprises and treats for her. she deserves it.
she gave me many wonderful gifts for my birthday. she professionally framed a card i made for her. she framed something else i did that has been published. that was just the most wonderful gift. so thoughtful. she gave me some cash too (for thailand) and a few other wonderful things. she spoils me and i completely and totally love it.
i didn't find any time to paint this weekend (it was crazy busy with my mom here). and that's okay. it'll come. sometime.

7 comments:

~Amie~ said...

oh, I looooove the photo Kimberly!! you look great!

Patrice~ said...

you're a mom.
it's just what we do.
how nice nice nice
she spent time with you.

have you tried wordle yet?

very therapeutic . . .

Marieke said...

Hon you sound so at the end of your rope yet you still manage to put other people first (you mum). big hugs to you. Life can be a bitch at times with all it throws at us. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and your path will clear.
Just learnt about your trip to Thailand. Sounds like it is exactly what you need. Wishing I could come with you.

Lisa said...

I think you are an amazing woman. Have I told you that lately?

Truly...you are Wonder Woman. I think you need a kick ass pair of boots and some rocking cuff bracelets.

Lea L. said...

I love that photo Kimberly. It is awesome!

Big hugs to you Kimberly...I hope that you find some peace soon, and get some rest! You deserve it.

~Lea

Jenn~ said...

What a beautiful picture of a beautiful Kimberly. I hope you can get the true rest you need for your spirit and soul.

jensmack said...

Moms are like that... they have to worry and be concerned, otherwise they're not Moms. That's the way my Mom was with me too. All the time. If she didn't worry about me, she worried about the kids. I blame her for my neurosis. ;)

I'm glad you had a good time with her while she was there. I'm sure it meant a lot to her - as it did for you.

xoxoxo sweet girl.