Mrs. Armstrong....a name I don't think I'll forget.

Today E had his kindergarten evaluation. Alexander and I filled out some paperwork in the back of the classroom while E met with Mrs. Armstrong. Mrs. Armstrong.....E's first teacher. She seemed nice. He liked her. She had good things to say about him. He scored above average on his evaluation. I was listening. I was laughing. I was nervous. I was happy. He did great. He didn't realize he was being evaluated which is for the best. He was nervous though I think...he must have sensed something...plus it was his first time in his classroom. His first time meeting his teacher, a woman he will be spending his mornings with now. I'm sad. Someone else will be teaching my son. But I really truly did LOVE listening to him answer her questions, watch him write his name..do whatever it was she asked him to do. And he was SO polite. SO sweet. Yes Mrs. Armstrong...no Mrs. Armstrong...lol...it was precious. I really was proud. Still am. I think I'm nervous too. And I didn't realize just how nervous until I was face to face with taking him to his evaluation. I must not cry when I drop him off for his first day!!!! lol...

Do you think...

I just walked across the floor in the kitchen and things were sticking to my bare feet. Do you think I should sweep...maybe mop? NO? Good. That's what I was thinking too. lol... Later. Tomorrow. Or the day after.... That works for me. I'll get to it before the weekend actually because we have friends from Atlanta coming to stay with us for a few days. I'm just not feelin' it right now. Getting ready to serve the boys some dinner. Note to self: don't buy any more pasta. We have a freaking ton already. I seem to always buy pasta at the store...like, well...I'm here. I better buy it. lol... I don't like going to the store. Gotta go soon though. Running out of milk. My fam drinks a lot of milk (well, all except for me). I don't like milk. Ick. EXCEPT...yeah..you knew there was an exception....lol....I LOVE it when it's surrounded by sugar, chocolate and is frozen. Then...well...I can't get enough! Great. Now I want ice cream. lol... Good thing I have some Skinny Cow. My newest obsession. Yum.

P.S. Don't put the garlic bread in the oven and then go off to your laptop. We won't be having garlic bread tonight.

Selfish people suck.

People who, time and time again, think about nothing but themselves......suck. Especially when they are in your family. It is such a complicated matter. And right now I am fuming. Just picture me sitting here with steam coming out both of my ears because that's how I feel. Hot. Angry. Just..........pissed............off. People that say they will do something and then don't...again and again....I'm done. I'm tired of being on the bottom of the list........I'm tired of being just 'squeazed' in when it's convenient for them. I'm tired of feeling unimportant. It makes me sad.

....end of mini vent....

Contradictions...I'm full of them.

I love my kids. I love staying home with them. I love watching them grow, and learn...watching them interact. I love holding them.....watching them play....hearing them laugh..I love so many things...I fiercely love my children. But sometimes...I wish I had part of 'me' back. Sometimes I just long for uninterrupted free time so I can create. Is that bad? ~sigh~ There are just not enough hours in the day. It seems all my time is spent unloading the dishwasher, making breakfast, lunch and dinner. Doing the dishes. Feeding the dogs. Laundry. Shopping. Errands. Cleaning. Cleaning some more. I feel like I am always just fitting things in....and that does not help my creativity level at all! I do get a break every day, after the kids go to bed. And James plays with them when he comes home from work. It just doesn't seem to be enough. In a perfect world I would live on the coast. I would take the boys and the dogs for walks on the beach every day. I would have time to paint, to scrap, to just...be. I would stay up late....sleep in. I would drink scalding hot coffee in the morning and do it leisurely. Right now I don't even MAKE coffee in the morning. Ah...well...I really should stop complaining. I have many wonderful things in my life. Truly. Most of all the hubby man and two healthy children. What more can a girl ask for? Oh...lol...I know. Some time (not just once in a while) but on a regular basis to CREATE. So that the 'always running out of time' feeling never comes back. In a perfect world...

Why is it...

that when I SHOULD BE scrapping, I find myself sitting in the fam room on my laptop instead of at my desk??? Hmmm??? lol... Why do you suppose that is. OH. I know...my mojo went missing. It got up and went. It got along little doggie. It splitsivlle. It said, "C ya". BLAH FREAKIN' BLAH. It better come back soon. Think I'll go eat me a Skinny Cow ice cream sammy. Yum. That'll do the trick.

Another couple LOs.....

Fly on the Wings of a Butterfly. LOVED making this one! Today I'm in charge of a challenge at ScrapGal. The challenge I came up with is to make a LO using texture paste and/or paint. This one I did with paint only. Used my fingers and Q Tips to paint the butterfly (couldn't find my smallest brush). Blah! lol...


Smotherly Love! lol....love my witty title? lol... This one I made with texture paste right on cardstock. Love the the pic of E practically squeezing the life right out of Alexander. lol... This is about a year and a half ago. ~sigh~ Where does the time go? This LO was SO much fun to do! No clue what the funky red-looking spot is on the pic though. It's not there IRL!

Know who's prettier than I am?

Snow White. Yup. That's what Ethan told me. He said, "Mommy, Snow White is prettier than you." Now read that (in a five year old little boy voice)....that little boy having NO idea what impact that simple statement would have. Sheesh. I've been replaced. lol.... Kids are so honest. Not always a good thing! (kidding...totally kidding).....sort of....yea...uh.......

~sigh~

Sometimes I do stupid things. I just ruined a BRAND NEW (just got them yesterday) package of MME Bohemia rub ons. I almost cried. lol.... The little paper thingie fell out and I didn't realize it and the rub ons all stuck to the packaging. Bummer. Total bummer. I figured I should stop...walk away for a while...lol...before I ruin something else. Maybe even go to bed. My eyes are tired. Have I mentioned how much my allergies S-U-C-K???!!! Well..they do. I am off to bed...but not before I check on the Zan man. Make sure he's comfy...then of course I'll go check on E too. lol...Can't check on one if you don't check on the other! That's in the good mother's hand book you know. True.

A couple recent LOs!

Did this page for the ScrapGal Aug 'o6 newsletter. I am soo loving getting back into 8 1/2 x 11. I think this is a funny pic of E too. That kid is freaking crazy...and funny....and so many other things! Love him. Journaling: Be the star of your own show. Live like no one is watching.

I may be out there, but I love 'Be Happy'. It makes ME happy. Totally lost myself when I made this page and I FREAKING LOVE THAT. Journaling: Be happy. Be content. Be peaceful.

I swear at some point I'll figure out how (and make the time) to put up a FAB banner. And I'll add a slideshow of pages....uh huh. I will.....some day..... :)

Big fat freaking rain drops.

If there is one saving grace about living in this place I call 'home'.....~sigh~ during the month of August it never fails. There are a few days here and there where thunderstorms appear out of nowhere. They are short lived...but when it rains.....it rains big fat delicious rain drops. The smell of rain....~inhaling~....just smells SOOOO good. It cools off, we open the doors....we stand together by the door in our bedroom and just watch it rain. Love that.

When we were camping this weekend it rained. I woke up a few times during the night and just listened to the rain. It's soothing. It's relaxing. It makes you want to cuddle up in your blankets.

UNFREAKING BELIEVABLE!!!!

Could I be ANY stupider???!!!! Uh.......no. Probably not. That little voice inside my head said to me today, pssssssssst...go check and find out when the boys' next swimming lessons are. So I did. And they started JULY 31st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Uh......................that was FOUR DAYS AGO. Yea. Can you believe that????? I can't. Lessons are only two weeks long. So they missed the entire first week!!!!!! For some reason I had it in my head that lessons began on August 10th. Well, they END on Aug 10th. Sheeesh. Unbelievable.

I need more sleep.
I need to concentrate more on what I've got going on around here.
Lately I have been spending waaaay too much time NOT doing anything because I can't concentrate on what I SHOULD be doing!
There are NOT enough hours in the day. To make up for it, I stay up waaaay too late. That only makes the problem worse...I don't get much sleep...but I still feel like it's my only time to scrap...the only free time I have.
Mother of the year. Right here. Yay for me. BLAH.