it bothers me that i miss being part of an 'us'.
why can't i just suck it back in, take it back to the level it used to be (before james) and be happy with it just being me.
and not an us.
i am down with spending time by myself.
i don't like to paint when people are around.
i guess i'm just figuring out that i also like knowing there is someone for me to be with when i am ready.
when i want it.
it REALLY bothers me that i miss being part of an us.
i guess i thought i was more independent than that.
maybe i see wanting someone to hold me as a sign of weakness.
it's almost sad to me, that not much seems to phase me.
i'm not surprised when things don't go the way i thought they were going to go.
i'm not surprised when people say they will do things and they don't.
i'm also starting to get pissed off that i can't say what i really want to say here.
this blog is my journal.
yet i'm having to edit myself.
which totally pisses me off.
time to start a new blog??
thinking about it.
4 comments:
I agree with the no title thing...you are a genious!
sorry you are feeling edited...and we all need people, even if we like spending time, even a lot of time, alone. hugs my friend.
I'm with you, Momma! I had to cut bait and start over again. I'd love a cyber map to where you are, but of course it's your call and I'll respect whatever you say cause that's the kinda friend I am :)
Personally, I love a witty blog title, but what do I know? I'm a sap right now! Lol
The truth is: you'll never be who you were before James. His love changed you. The life you had together has made you a different person. And, Momma, you're the better for it. That's not weak, my friend. That's really livin'
Okay, so sometimes it lists on ma blog browser that you have a new post then when I go to your actual blog it aint there! What gives??? Did you erase the post that came after this one? Or am I having technical difficulty?
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